Isolation

In this condition, and even in my addiction, I isolated and isolated hard. This morning I thought about parenting. How there's worse punishment than an butt whipping, and it's in the world too. It will make you wish it was a whipping.

I thought about "Go to your room and you can come out when you think about your behavior." It's all really that simple, but I got locked into the punishment and it outlived its usefulness because it's no longer healthy.

Went to a meeting last night, shared, and it opened with the Serenity Prayer. Well by the time I ended sharing I found the answer was in my prayer. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

I came to know I'm getting stuck on things I can't change and that keeps me from having to have the courage to change the things I can, and that's not healthy. So there's all kinds of things that are lined up for me to get out of the house on, and it's all stuff I'm required to do so there's no excuse, but because I admitted the defect of despondency, when I went out and did those things I got hopeful, and things weren't all that bad.